Emotional Turmoil

I may be smiling or laughing crazily in front of anyone,
but when my heart cries, no one will know.
I couldn't express my feelings out nowadays.
Everything is suppressed.
I think I might be having another character in me which is trying very hard to protect me.
Very, very hard to ensure that I don't shed my tears easily in any heart breaking situations.
I'm quite sensitive actually so there's quite a lot of those moments to me.
Funny moments does cheer up the outer me, but it's still the same for the inner me.
So,
I need a break down moment once in a while.
Need to pour out EVERY single thing that has being kept until now.
Not anyone could do that.
I hope there is someone dear to me out there to reach out his/her hand.