I Love Her Voice So Much!!

Stacey Solomon
Never judge a person by how they looked, and the way they SPEAK.
See This.

I'm hearing this over more than 10 TIMES, but ain't getting fed up. =)

Graduation Day

--13 November 2009--

It's finally the day.
The day when tears are shed--
Hugs are given--
Moments of sadness--

BUT instead,

We scribbled away our autographs during HM's speech.
Over-timed photo taking sessions.
Getting shouted by disciplinary teachers for disrespecting the ceremony.
Hunting for teachers to shoot with. XD

Aiyo, Form 6 already still getting yelled by teachers to behave properly! Haha
My collection of autographs is also not that bad la...
At least it's not that empty for a quiet person like me!
Popular people like Sin Yee have full 3 pages!
Others would have touching messages, while mine are full with funny ones... X)
"Don't get addicted with FB", "Anime fans & Bishounen unite", "always waiting for you at room 0511"... etc. etc. XD

[Thanks everyone~ I'm so touched~ Even if it's full with 'Good Luck's and 'Best Wishes"s]

For the first time, it felt so hard to part with the others...
It's a totally different feeling unlike my previous fifth form graduation.(Meh... Couldn't feel anything for it at all.)
The most critical part is when it comes to shaking hands with my teachers!
And the first is,
Pn Vijaya!
I'm scared to face her...
Began to have tears in my eyes looking at her from far away...
When she gave me a big hug, I just burst into tears...
Couldn't hold it anymore!
Then there comes Pn Suraini...
Omg, both motherly-like teachers made me cried.
If Pn Hong came to school, it'll be banjir kilat coming!!
Pn Zahariah went to Mekkah, and Mr Tiong didn't came down to shake hands with us. So mean.
We've taken loads and loads of pics!
Stupid me had forgotten to bring handphone too!
But in the end, we enjoyed our lunch at Sukiyami's.
And more photo-takings.
And more.
And...
Last but not least,
6A1 ROCKS!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!

6B1/2008
6A1/2009 no regrets.

I Need You...

I need...
Someone who I can share my feelings with...
Listens to whatever I need to tell...
Laugh with me...
Cry with me...
Talk just about everything...
Cheer me up whenever I'm down...
Someone who I can lean on...
Lets me cuddle in...

Time to get myself a huge, cuddly teddy bear. XD
Okay, okay. Just feeling despo for this moment.
I want something to hug!
Even a teddy bear's sufficient!
So sad... Never had any teddy bears bigger than a school bag before.

Weird-- Dream

Can be considered as the happiest dream that I've ever dreamt!
Quite realistic also cause usually what I've dreamt are full with bullshit XD
Got the feeling of being loved from the other half from my dream!
Yalah, it's damn ordinary for you people, but I've never got mine yet, so it's special to me!

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There's this guy who's always after me... (I know no one will! It's just a dream, k!)
I don't know why I was always avoiding him..
Then suddenly there's a cruise trip, with a whole bunch of people,
Celebrating something i think-?
Then we get to confront each other and he confessed and he took something from me...?
I was chasing him like crazy, jumping down flights of stairs,
Felt so light reaching each steps, but I could feel the impact between my feet..



Finally caught him!
Then there's a long conversation... but I forget most of it already!!
I finally accepted him for who he is...
And we were lying down on the floor facing upwards watching the fireworks on a clear night...
Can feel his bare chest with my hands!
Ok! Nothing more than that! Wake up already! ><
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The worst thing is I forgot a lot immediately after waking up!!!
I knew it felt really really 'real'..

And weird things bout dreams are, we never, NEVER experience it before in real life but you knew how it would happen in a dream!
Once I dreamt I've being stabbed, shot by a gun, fell off the building, burnt alive, etc. (Haha, crazy dreams eh)



I can feel the moment of impact when the bullet pierced into my body or the heat from the blast of a bomb....!!
And there's once I dreamt that I can speak FLUENT JAPANESE in an everyday-life situation. Cool shit.
When I wake up and try to make a sentence in Japanese, nothing pops out... (No, I've never taken any Japanese language classes.)
Sounds ridiculous but you don't know until you've dreamt bout it!
Maybe you would say I've watched too much drama lah
Yeah.. maybe.
The brain is really good at interpreting unreal situations into something you can feel...

Just for Laughs~

Oh, you've gotta love this~
I loved how they styled their hair...
It's just so ANIME-ish!! XD

[From Hana Kimi]

...

Time flies really fast.
It's October in a blink of an eye.
Worst exam results ever in my life, 2 failed at one shot!!
I wonder what's wrong with me, I've lost the interest to study anymore...
I hate to disappoint my teachers...
I felt so bad about it...
It's so bad that I don't know how to climb back up...
Friends are doing very well day by day. Me? Rotting bit by bit.

Anyway, today was the Anugerah Cemerlang for co-curricular activities!
Really amazed with each and every students who've gotten their awards with their records been mentioned on stage.
Then I started to wonder, what am I doing in my life?
There isn't any achievements, be it in studies or music.
How I wished I'd taken up an activity that really influenced me a lot
that I'll have to spend most of my time with it, rather than sitting down here typing a blog.
Then there came the performances from the Chinese orchestra and brass band.
I have to tell you, it's really amazing!
I'm really surprised that our school students are that good!
I love the soothing sound from the Chinese orchestra instruments and the joyous music from the school brass band...
At the end of the ceremony, we've got our soon-to-be singer to sing for everyone.
My goodness, her voice is so, so beautiful!
I hope she'll get to be a famous singer and when it happens,
she'll get all my support! (Just like Manhand! XD)

PEACH by Otsuka Ai

taiyou sansan moriagaru kotoshi wa
uta itai
kibun runrun nomitai houdai
waraitai

yureru yureru kokoro ni
dokidoki shitai na
soremo sou kana rakuen
ah~ ah~ ah~
natsu da ne

peach
hikkurikaeru ai no mark
itten de fuantei dakara
sugu itten suru dakedo
kaeshite miseru yo

peach
hikkurikaeru ai no mark
nanbai mono power ga
hitsuyou ganbatte miseru yo
aishichau kara

yuutsu ni bye bye sonna hima wa nai
motta inai
dappi de bye bye ii tokoro mitara
chance deshou

hitamukisa ga daiji ne
wasureta ano hi
itsu noma ni yogoreta n da
ah~ ah~ ah~
tsukushii masu

peach
oishii darake no yuuwaku
sukoshi kurai shinpai
shitatte ii janai
shinjiteru kedo

peach
oshiri ga hoshi kereba
ageru wa sashigekiteki na yoru to
iyashi no
asa yooi suru ne

suikonda naka ni
mon zaeta akuma to tenshi
osedo osedo hiki
moto ni kaeshitara
high touch!

peach
nanigoto mo balance
otagai my pace
rythym ni awasete
jump! jump!

peach
yappa ishonni you yo
iru beki da you
kigen nao shite tanoshi mo you
kono natsu wo

peach
hikkurikaeru ai no mark
nanbai mono power ga
hitsuyou ganbatte miseru yo
aishichau kara

aishichau kara

aishichau kara

peach 2x

peace!

[Hana Kimi... Nakatsu is the bleached orange hair on the left side showing peace! XD]
Cutesy, fun song from Otsuka Ai for Hanazakari no Kimitachi e @ Hana Kimi!
Watched Japanese version of course~
So many handsome guys to look at!!! Especially the funny, super cute guy, Nakatsu!
Ashiya should have chosen him... Feel so bad for Nakatsu... >_<
Btw, Nakatsu was acted by Ikuta Toma~

Worst Day Ever...

Wow, I've never knew I would skipped one whole month not writing a blog!

I'm down with a flu, not just a simple one but a blocked nose, on both nostrils!
So damn difficult to breath properly.
What's more, I'm accompanied by sorethroat and felt warmer than usual.
I felt I'll get sicker if I go to school today, but still my mum said I didn't catch a fever.
Felt worse going to school.
Got myself really sleepy and felt like I'm going to blacked out anytime.

Of course, with me carrying a different attitude and a bottle of honey, some would get curious and started asking.
Lucky to have some who did care, but the ones I wanted them to know the most doesn't even want to nudge.
Completely disappointed.
One of my friend said I really should go home, yeah, I wanted to, but there's half more day to go!
And then, I started to get really pessimistic, alright, you guys want me to go home so I wouldn't infect you all?
Yeah, I might have the symptoms of a potential H1N1 victim, but you don't need to get rid of me so quickly.

The optimistic side of me, "I shouldn't be in school at all, if I would get that deadly disease (touch wood),
I wouldn't want to spread to all of you and be the very first victim of H1N1 not only in school, the neighbourhood, but also in Kepong!"
"Why don't you guys just be honest and tell me to go home just because you guys are afraid of me spreading the disease?!"

Gotten my head to heat up even more by thinking all of these.

I didn't know I'm having fever until my parents took me to the clinic to have me checked.
High fever. 102 degrees Fahrenheit. Around 38.9 degree Celcius if I'm not wrong.

Slept the whole noon for so long that I feel so numb. Checked the handphone.
No message. Frustrated. No one really cares after all.
To make it worse, tonight my class is having barbecue party and by this time they're done of course.
I should be there having fun if it's not because of this stupid fever.
Til now, not even a single message asking about my condition.
Aah, so fucked up. Oh, did I say I'm disappointed?

Holidays are Over! School Starts! Mouse Dissection!

I know it's a little late...

Wasted my 2 weeks on anime and online games. Harhar.
Yabai. Homework not finished yet!

Today we had dissection on a white mice!!
Each person are given one, it was stinky at first but later on got accustomed to it.
It wasn't that bad actually, coz when you stare at it long enough, it'll looked normal. Yes. It felt normal dissecting it.
I still can take my meal after that. XD

But it's still quite sad to realise that these mice are born to be killed by us, students.
Urgh, felt a sudden guilt pierced through...
These two years I'm killing the most of living organisms ever in my life.
Seriously! It's bad to kill so many insects to get the perfect preserved ones, and now a mammalian!
Now we've got the image of an-alien-abducting-human kind of feeling. Haha.

For first timers, it's best for you to think of it as a 'chicken'!
For those who have never seen their mum gut a chicken/fish before, pandai-pandai lah.

Funny Scenes With Nodame Cantabile!

I love these scenes a whole lot! Really funny until I had a stomach cramp! XD
Trust me, you just have to watch it.

naive Nodame got tricked... with food!

Counter-offer...

Piano practice? Nah, not attractive enough. ;)




XDDD!!




^O^!
Banzai~!
Victory!

Cunning Seinen

Monthly tuition fees of RM220 are heavy on me...
Fortunately, I have the government's help where I can get my 'pocket money' every month without needing me to return it. Hehe.
But I still have to 'korek' my own to pay the remaining fees...
Rarely had my brunch bought in school and I always wanted myself to restrain from eating during recess.
But if I do so, I can't concentrate in class after that!
Hosoi ni naritai!

Maths tuition class fees is almost 50% of the total! And he never replace any cancelled classes yet he still want us to pay!
Confronted him about this and he easily shoved it off by saying he'll add extra time only. 15 minutes!
C'mon! One normal class is 1.5 hours, RM12.50 per class, missed 6 classes with a total loss of RM75...
Omg, I could buy lots of stuff with this amount of money.
I wanted to quit the class but with my stupid brain, I couldn't do so...
What an easy way to earn money!
I wonder if I have the potential to teach like him... Lol. Totally hopeless.

Have to be calculative as my mum is the one and only breadwinner in the family.
If I had the money, I would be in college right now!

Happy Holidays...? I Don't Think So.

Hated this day so much!
Stood for an hour during morning assembly with all the prize giving ceremonies, talks and nags, especially from the principal.
Muet was the first period of the day, and the teacher told us about a vicious gang rape story, leaving me so disgusted. I believed the girls felt the same way too.
Then Biology time, not that bad, luckily she didn't give back the exam results and continued teaching as usual.
The real nightmare came after recess... Maths papers were given back.
Paper 1 was okay, but Paper 2 pulled down my marks a lot! That was expected but somehow I felt so bad. Before exam, my Maths teacher had high expectations on me on getting an A though I was absent for my lower sixth form exam.
She said happily, "You're surely an A student!".
She was so disappointed while handing me the papers...
I've never felt so guilty before in my school life!
Nevertheless, I think I didn't fail for this subject, from what I've counted-lah. If I failed in it, it would be a total of 3 failures!
Bio and Chem sure fail, no doubt.

***

I had a really weird dream...
A dream where I was running in a competition, weak and felt like dying, was left behind and a guy I know suddenly appeared, riding a motorcycle to pick me up to the end of the race! I was like, going to die from exhaustion, so I hugged that person's back really tight as I'm really afraid from falling off. The warmness felt so real to me! Just nice to hug, so comfortable... Haha. That should be my blanket and pillow. XD

Ups and Downs

Celebrated teacher's day in school today and it was as usual, sometimes excited, sometimes bored to death.
We then had a little celebration in our own class with all the teachers who have been teaching us.
Crowds, noises, touched teachers, cutting cakes, anime forum discussions (Damn, it was fun! XD) and photo taking sessions...

I really hate photo taking sessions.
Whenever my eyes are forced to look at the lens, my smile would be crooked eventhough I was in a happy mood.
I don't take photos unless asked. The National Service photo wasn't my idea, but lucky it came out to be quite okay.^^"
Spoil my mood of the day after thinking of the unpleasant photo taken where my hideous face would spoil the whole picture...
I'll be really sensitive whenever the photos are taken and the facial expression of the photographer would change or ask for one more shot.
That's why I wouldn't ask how the pictures look like...
It never fails to disappoint me.

***

Then there came this stupid cockroach came crawling as fast as it could against the 'current',
always making me to think of this disgusting creature that is coming with all its might to crawl onto my leg!
No slippers in the bathroom!! I don't wanna use my feet neither the pails,
I wouldn't want to see the disgusting guts all smashed out... Urgh...
Stupid cockroach made me scream like an idiot in the bath...
Used a quarter of the water source to "flush" it down to where it came from!
I hate them so much!

Jishin ga aru!

Declaration of independence day.
Merdeka! Merdeka! Mer...

W00ts! Mid year examination is over~! No more last minute cramming on my textbooks~
Tadaima, anime-kun-tachi e~

Wasn't that free actually, had tuition classes from 2.25pm to 6.10pm but reached home at 7 due to stupid traffic jam... So god damn tired but I couldn't resist to blog!

Met my friend's younger sister at school today, I was actually shocked to see her! The last time I saw her was when she's like about one meter tall, poured sand on me when I came over for a visit...
Gosh, she's so cute! Kya~! And goodness, her English is really good! I was kind of nervous (it's always like that when I meet someone new) so I spoke really terrible English with her... Gah, so embarassing! Haha. Nevertheless, we didn't chat for quite long as I was going to sit for the last paper...

Told my friend I saw her younger sis, and later on her younger sis and her lil friend told her that I looked pretty...
Wuahh, sonna! Hazukashi yo...

I thought I'm pretty fat for a senior like me in school. =="
That really melted my heart, like "Aww... thank you so much!".
I wouldn't know that she might be telling the truth or else, but that really gave me an impact. I mean, we didn't meet for 7 years, and her first impression on me was that... *Blush* Well, that's the first time for me.
Mmhhmm, that gave me some self-confidence. ^^

Btw, she looked exactly the clone of her elder sis... Looks, voice, attitude...
A really rare angelic family~ ~.~

About U by Tommy Heavenly6

Summer fancy lights
kata goshi ni miageta sora hikari no ame
afuresou na namida
kidzukarenu you ni kakushite ita no
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Summer fancy lights
I looked up at the sky over your shoulders and saw the rain of light
I was hiding my overflowing tears
so you don't notice them

zawameki no naka ni kesarete shimatta kedo
nee ano toki nante itta no?
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I disappeared into the noise
Hey, did you say it that time?

mou nando mo anata no koto wo kangaeteru
nani wo shitemo te ni tsukanakute
呼吸(iki) wo suru tabi omotteru ABOUT U
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I'm already thinking about you over and over
No matter what I do, I can't have you
I'm thinking ABOUT U every time I breathe

dare no koe mo kikoenai
zenbu uso no you ni surinukete iku
anata no kotoba dake ga
yami wo kudaki toki wo tomeru
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I can't hear anyone's voice
It all slips by like a lie
Only your words
smashes the darkness and stops time

hitorijime shitai to wa omowanai kedo
hoka no ko ni wa yasashiku shinaide
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I don't think about wanting to monopolize you, but
don't be kind to some other girl

nee itsuka wa aenaku naru no?
karappoi eiga mitai ni shinde shimaeba
naite kureru? nante hakisou da wa yeah
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Hey, will there come a time when we won't be able to meet someday?
If I die like some cheesy movie,
will you cry for me? How sickening! yeah

fumidasezu ni obiete ita no
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I was afraid without stepping forward

demo itsuka wa shinde shimau no
ano hi hanabi no oto ni kakikesareta kotoba
sugu kikikaeseba yokatta no kamo yeah
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
But someday we'll die
And on that day, your words will be drowned out by the sound of fireworks
Maybe it'd be nice to hear them over soon, yeah

aki mo sezu ni anata no koto wo kangaeteru
doko ni itemo nani wo shitetemo
呼吸(iki) wo suru tabi omotteru ABOUT YOU
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I think of you without getting tired
No matter where you are or what you're doing,
I'm thinking ABOUT YOU every time I breathe

[Love this song even before I knew what's the lyrics is all about...]

It Got Me Thinking...

It was the first time I shampooed my body first before my hair for a long time and when I started to notice that, I felt so weird. Haha. (Well, I cleansed myself starting from head to toe.) It was about this guy, no, not new target for god's sake...

Since the first year in sixth form, he was being really friendly, until I mentioned something that's really sensitive to him. He started the joke first about, hey that's your mum honking, then naturally I'll reply, no way, that honking should be from your dad's. Then he said he doesn't have a dad. I was like I don't care as I thought he's the clown of the class who's always being nonsense in everything. All hell broke loose the next day until the second year of sixth form started. He's being mean to me all the time and those words are so venomous that it felt like multiple arrows rapidly stabbed through me...
I asked my classmates about it, and it's true that his dad isn't staying with him anymore and asked whether he's the sensitive type, but most of them said he's used to it already and he don't mind making jokes on it. If it's like that, then why was he being so mean to me?! I wanted to apologise all the while, but there's always no suitable time for it. And it just go along with the wind.

Then it went on smoothly, I mean, no more venomous words, and he's being friendly again and making jokes with everyone in the class as usual. He acts like a mischievous little kiddo, talks alot, actively running in and out, siao type la. He's very friendly to anyone, hugging and clinging to either guys or girls he knew which I think it's his normal behaviour. But sometimes he's quite dynamic... Sometimes he's happy and when he's not, he's like a walking time bomb and will burst into flames if anyone tries to trigger him... Scary indeed.
He wasn't close to me initially as I don't really know what to talk to guys actually... But now he's getting stickier than ever which I feel rather weird and quite uncomfortable because it's so sudden and I never talk a lot with him before except we've worked together during sports day...

It's nothing and I think of him as a child...
eg. "Yosh, yosh... iiko dane..."
"There, there... You're such a good boy... *pat on the head*"

This type. He's a good friend though. He's acting like this probably just to derive people's attention, like what my other classmates who knew him long enough to say so.
During this exam week, he's always asking me to let him visit me to revise together... Talked about it in school and even in sms, asking me for permission! I replied him saying he's nonsense and it stopped. Haha. He made me treat him like a quite close girlfriend where we've talked in a close distance, but not for long of course. I wouldn't know what to talk to him whenever he comes by, either about studies or make me gamble with him. O.o

*Updated*
He's different from what I thought...
He was really, really sick after that but got better after a problem's solved... =)
A good friend indeed, hope that fella will accept him back! I'd pray for his happiness!

Miserable Death

My mind was so blank.
Everything that I have read disappeared just like that after reading the questions.
Time's up.
I never felt so dead before..
Totally breathless...
My friends were all saying don't know how to do, not enough time, feel like committing suicide, blabla...
It echoes in my ears and all the while I struggled to keep smiling to avoid bad impression on others...
I wanted to apologise to my Chemistry teacher so much, but I could imagine her saying,
"You should apologise to yourself instead." because she's a really noble person to me!
Or maybe she might sounded like, "Padan muka", "Who told you not to read earlier?"...
I can 'see' people in my mind laughing at me saying those sentences...
I came back and told my mum I had my exam and "sei tak hou cham".
She laughed.
Sigh.
[Blasting my songs~!]

22.5.2009
The worst parts are over!!
Three more papers and I'll be on cloud nine~
Have to get back up and start to seriously revise after the exam...
I'm couldn't imagine my sucky results during open day... Sh*t. >.<

What a Day...

I got myself called out for the most times in my school life today...

I admit I do like it if my teachers have called me to solve some questions, but I wouldn't want to come out with my head blank! It's a very human thing! Lucky those questions are easy to be solved. I'm not saying I'm good at it, but I'd rather say my teachers have asked me to do the easiest question first, leaving the hard ones for the geniuses. =) But I hate been given too much attention though! That's the one disadvantage from sitting at the centre of the first row...

These days my Muet teacher who's also my class teacher, have been mentioning me frequently in the class! It freaked me out a lot when he do so and the worst thing he did today was that he gave me a slight push on my head after I giggled a little! That's so rude on girls! He messed up my hair! Come on! Others giggled as well, why me?! I have a hammer-knocking headache after that and it became worse with the microwave-oven Mathematics class. =="

I've decided to be absent for tomorrow's class as the Chemistry mid year exam is on this Friday. One of my friends is following suit as well!
Gah, damn headache.
Before I go, I would like to say,
"Piano ga suki desu!! x3

Introducing...!

Nodame Cantabile live~!
The best jdorama ever!
Although I've only started watching episode 1. Hehe^^

All along I hated classical music as I felt they're too boring and dramatic...
But after watching both the anime and this show, I begin to love and appreciate the making of these beautiful music! Behold the power of JCulture.
Love the bunch of professional actors and actresses in it!
The main character is such a charismatic guy!
Killer eyes... Killer smile... Killer look... *Mukya!* XD
ムキャァァァァァァァァ～！ギャボォォォォォォォ～！

He "kills" me everytime I watch this show! x3
But the weird thing is, he's not really photogenic to me...
He may looked so-so from the pictures that I've posted--
But he's really SmEckSY in the show!
See it for yourselves.

Countdown: Day of Calamity

Less than 20 hours to the real Muet speaking examination starting from now...
Omg! I'm so stressed up! Well, I did practices last night on my own til around 11pm but I only get to sleep about 1am! I guess there's too much adrenaline rushing in my brain from being nervous! Even when I did it alone! Gosh, I couldn't imagine how I would do during the real one...

Had my group practice today too and when it's first carried out, my stomach's rumbling like how the washing machine works! The "pipe" would start to burst at any time during that moment but it went down when I got myself together and went on practising for 2 hours... Two LONG hours... The rehearsal doesn't stop for a break and it's driving my urinary bladder crazy...! I even had a stomach cramp before Muet speaking practice starts. =="

I'm so nervous now although it's not tomorrow yet...!! Can anyone pump in laughing gas please? ...

[PonZi rocks. *Emo mood turned on*]

cosxsin^2y..4u^6..392!@#$*)#%..

I have been doing Maths every single day!! It's okay if it's easy but it's nerve wrecking when each question needs long period of time to solve! Some even can't solve at all! I wouldn't want to get back in my room of mental torture... It's driving me crazy and inner monologues are getting to be even more frequent this time around... Felt my hair is thinning instead of graying... ToT

***

3 more days to hel... Muet...!! I'm so in deep trouble right now. I sucked so badly in formal speaking and even more in constrained time. It's like everything's BLANK once I stare on the question paper... And the worst thing is when I start to speak, I sounded like I'm an illiterate who've just learned English in 30 minutes! Yeah, it's bullshit to most of you, only those who's having the same problem and feel the same way as I am understands what I'm talking about...

Not funny, Homophile.

It is advisable to stop proceeding if you can't stand invective remarks.
No, I'm not the girl-next-door and "mantra" chanting helps to vent my anger.

----sTaRt----

I expect a good day since there's no school day tomorrow.
And it turned out to be catastrophic.
This fucko who's teaching PA intentionally embarassed me in front of the whole class! Not only my class, as there is another class in the room!! Means, 2 classes of people in 1 room, a total about 50++ people.
I hated him ever since he taught my class Chem and subsided when our real teacher came in to take over. He is always bias towards me! Okay, I may be giving a bad first impression when I first attended his class but come on! An emo hairstyle doesn't really make me an emo and wild person, idiot!
Why do I say he's a homophile? Well, it's obvious with his gestures. Have every sign of a Klinefelter's patient.
I was so relieved when my Chem teacher is back from her pregnancy leaves and I thought I would never see his fucking face ever again in my second year, yet he appeared AGAIN due to the stupid new teaching plan of PA.
He taught on the tactics to answer essay questions and giving tips on the ways to remember it. I thought since that hatred towards him was a long time ago, so I might as well be polite to fend off his unwanted attention on me. I really focused in his class and I wasn't looking at him so I wouldn't want to be an "example" in his explanation.

And yet he did. It's quite something like this :
Whenever you ask a person's opinion on someone you know, you wouldn't straight away say he/she is a terrible person or otherwise but just say ok-lah. He say he dated me, so what's the first impression about me? Must say ok-lah, can't say she's ugly or whatsoever.
Asshole. Fine. I acted normal as other classmates were laughing.

And here comes the SECOND time. :
When that person is really terrible, you guys will be all commenting on how bad he/she is. For example, how does she look like? Just after he asked, I heard a dickhead said, "Very teruk!" behind my class. Ok-lah. Just a lil bit outdated lo. A lil bit fat lo. A lil bit short lo. Then everyone goes "Hahaha". I didn't cared when he commented and I kept quiet as I want to believe he's not pointing at me. Then one of my classmate said, "Hey, do you know that teacher is talking about you?", I looked back, then I looked back at him. I just gave him an expressionless "Wah" and everyone's laughing like crazy again. No, NO APOLOGIES, NO I'm-just-kidding. He continued his lesson. Motherfucker son of a bitch. Who are you to judge me? Look at yourself first before judging someone else and of all places but in front of the whole class?? Fuck you, jackass. I didn't burst out like what I've written here at that moment but my patience punctured (only a small hole!) when my friend talked about it after recess. Lol

----tHe-EnD----

You guys might think it's nothing or it's an innocent joke or whatsoever, mind you, I'm utterly sensitive although I don't express it out often.

Fuh, blogging really helps! =3

*steam of invectives released... XD*

PS: Narcissist! You're not helping at all when you came over to "tell the truth"! Gratitudes to my friend who shared the same feelings with me. Thanks! =)

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surfed tis website, [ http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/anime-news-nina/2009-04-29 ] the comics r really damn nice!! xD lifted up my mood a lot... >.< luv e over exaggerated expressions Haha

Lub dup... Dub lup? XD

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I could hear the sound of my heartbeat. It gradually gets faster when I'm reaching the new hall, where my nightmares begin... But I felt the warmness illuminates the gloominess in me when my friends showed their broad smiles and started making jokes to calm down each other before sitting for the test... My principal and my Muet teacher came over to wish us luck! So touched... The narcissist in my class was so ecstatic! Lol
8.05am - Reading Paper starts. I flipped the question paper. It's quite okay... Next page. Yawn. Next. My head's getting dizzier. OMG. It's getting worse every page!
10.05am - Writing paper... Ugh. Not enough time as usual.
12.30pm - Listening paper. Speechless.

These papers were the least confident paper I've ever sat! The level is so much higher than I've thought! All the exercises that my teacher had given is nothing compared to this! "Resit! Resit! Havta retake exam already!", shouted by one of my friends... Felt so damn frustrated the whole day. We had a "celebration" after the exam at Papparich, had my free meal there as a thanks from my green house friend during the sports day. Of course not only me la, there are other green house members helping as well. Paiseh la... Thanks anyway! =)

*Updated*
I've got a Band 4 for MUET anyway... Well, lucky it's not a Band 2...! Lol

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I love to watch this show, 'Tokyo Walker' on channel 311, Wah Lai Toi. Love the hostess so much! XD Love her quirkiness, especially the way she eats! She just munched her way through with all the slurps and YET, she maintained her professional way without spilling the food in her mouth. Haha. And she's really funny (siao type! kaki lang! XD) and smiles all the time! Besides, I can learn Japanese in her show.^^
Usual hostess would eat soOOoOo politely, for instance, eating a burger but just bit a small piece of the burger bread and commented it's so delicious and it has this exquisite taste blablabla... I got this word in my mind whenever I came across shows like theirs. 'Stupid'.

The constant reminder of the Tokyo Walker about being lonely during her trip gives me the impact as well! That's what urged me to write a post here. Hehe.

Konna Ni Chikaku de... by Crystal Kay

Koi ga setsunai to
Sugu soba de kidzuita ano yoru
Datte hoka no dare yori
Anata no koto wo shitteru kara
Itsumo no sarigenai yasashisa sae
Kono mune wo shimetsuketeku
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I realized that love is painful when I was right beside you that night
Because I know you better than anyone else
Your natural kindness
compresses my heart so much it hurts

Konna ni, konna ni, chikaku de mitsumete mo
Doushite, doushite, tada no tomodachi na no
Donna ni, donna ni, tsuyoku omotteite mo
Tsutaerarenai
You don't understand
I'm so in love with you
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Even though I'm looking at you right beside me
Why, why are we still just friends?
Even though I think about you so much
I can’t convey my feelings
You don’t understand
I’m so in love with you

Genki nai yo ne to anata kara iwareta shunkan
Namida kakusu akubi de nebusoku karatte iiwakeshita
Ichiban taisetsuna hito ni uso wo kasaneteku ima no atashi
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
The moment you said "You look down"
Hiding my tears by yawning, using lack of sleep as an excuse
Right now I’m always lying to my most precious person

Mainichi, mainichi, mune ga kurushii kara
Ikutsu mo, ikutsu mo nemurenu yoru wo koe
Hajimete, hajimete, deatta ano hibi mata
Modoreru no nara ii no ni
I'm so in love with you
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Because my heart hurts day after day
I spend countless nights without sleep
Ever since the first day we met by chance
If only we could return to that time
I’m so in love with you

Aishiteru to tsugeta kitto
Mou nidoto egao ni wa modorenai kamoshirenai
Keredo mo tomodachi no mama
Tsukuriwarai wa kore ijou watashi dekinai kara
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
It’d be nice to confess and love you
Is it impossible to go back to our smiling faces?
Although remaining as friends and not confessing might be better than love
Because I’m not able to do it anyway

Hontou wa, hontou wa, zutto suki datta no
Itsu demo, itsu demo, aishitsudzuketeta no
Anata ni, anata ni, todoketai kimochi wo
Aoi sora e to sasayaita
I’m so in love with you
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Truly, truly I’ve always loved you
I always, always want to continue loving you
I want to send these feelings to you
I whisper them to the blue sky
I’m so in love with you

Konna ni, konna ni, chikaku de mitsumete mo
Doushite, doushite, tada no tomodachi na no
Donna ni, donna ni, tsuyoku omotteite mo
Tsutaerarenai
You don't understand
I'm so in love with you
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Just like this, I look at you from up close
But why, why are we only just friends?
No matter how strong my feelings are
I can’t convey it to you
You don’t understand
I’m so in love with you

[Got this song from Nodame Cantabile! Love it so much~! XD]

And So... The Idiot Plan Begins.

Our Pengajian Am (equivalent to General Paper, just that it is in Bahasa) has changed its teaching method to lecture form, the exact way of college students attend theirs... EXCEPT that each classes is divided into two groups for our science stream classes and into three groups for art stream people. Different teachers will take over to lecture us when there is three periods of Pengajian Am (around 1 hour and 30 minutes) while when there is two periods of it, we'll have so-called tutorial class. Half of my classmates gets to stay in the class and the rest have to be 'nomads'! Of course I'm included!! There's no proper room or place for them to conduct, yet they still insist to do it. Plain stupidity. Waste our time running around the school, get a seat for ourselves and no tables for us. What's more, if it's not conducted in the hall, then we have to be in the foyer! Sitting on the floor! Come on!

Arise, my alien bebe!! XD (Warning, 18SG)

My leg had a kind of growth where it got infected last 3 years ago and it left a permanent scar, as big as a 50 cent coin... The old clinic doctor squeezed all the pus out and even pulled the surrounding skin too! It left me crying due to the enormous pain and made me temporarily crippled the whole month...

Then a few months back my mum brought me to the experienced doctor and this doctor said it shouldn't be squeezed out but surgically removed it as a whole because even if the pus are removed but the "shell" stayed, it will be back and continues to grow!! It's not pathogenic to the body but it stays there as a growing parasite and will "burst" when it 'feels' like it. (Curse the old geezer doc! >:() This doctor recommended her husband who's a specialist in conducting surgeries and it's my decision whether I should remove it or let it be...

The day finally came to me.
Since it's growing everyday,
Since it's a pain in the ass! (leg actually),
Since I want my leg to look better,
Since it's one week holiday!,
I've decided to undergo surgery this very morning.
About 10am - started my journey to the polyclinic
10.45am - reached already... ==
11.30am - the doctor came in! My hands are all wet and cold! Damn nervous. My leg got anaesthetized for 5-6 times! It's like needles poking from inside and stings like crazy until my leg went numb. My mum said my leg bleed until 6-7 square-shaped cottons are wet with blood. ++ I only felt that the doctor kept scrapping and pulling it out. Whenever i peeked on my leg, I'll feel a slight pain! I don't dare to watch the whole process and I prayed that the anaesthetic effect won't be gone in the middle of the surgery...
12.00pm - Finally done and stitched 5 times. It look like Vood doll random stitches... O.o

During the surgery, the doctor went on, "Oh wow, so BIG!", "It's going to leave a hole in your leg! Hahaha...". Not funny! ToT I knew he was joking only (I hope he's joking!!) and he became serious later.

Here are the pictures.

[Omg! It's born! O.O]

[Aww, my baby! Haha. Shaped just like a bullet...]
Gross. I hope it doesn't leave a obvious scar behind... >.<

Sports Day!

This was the first time I had myself so involved in annual sports day in seven years! I wouldn't give a damn on all these events as teachers get to stay in the astaka (a pavilion but is an ugly one) while all students (excluding media members and involved documentation club members!) stayed under the scorching sun hearing the long announcement on winners in the sports competition... When the principal started to give his speech, students disintegrated themselves and ran around like ants on fire! We were given a week holiday as stated in the calendar and duh! We knew about it and longed for it, his speech on when is holiday and blablabla aren't needed at all. The great thing about him is anything, just ANYTHING can be elaborated for as long as he wishes to.

My school has four sport houses, namely Green, Yellow, Red and Blue. My friend got voted as the AJK Perhiasan Khemah, where you have to decorate the respective house's tent and win the event. Since we are in the same house and she's also my classmate, I agreed to help her and all along I thought it would be easy to decorate one...
So what happened is that the ideas she had was really hard to do, nearly impossible. The picture she showed on the tent looked round, with a bushy, tall tree sticking out of the tent. Okay... If we tried to simplify it, we may make it for the sports day. So, we started making leaves from cardboards and colouring them, most of the time.

[Gingerbread girl...? My 38 friend. Lol]

Then later on, she bought bamboo sticks and made a skeleton out of it, and it looked like a little boat! Of course, knives were used, so we can't do it in school or otherwise our parents would be called. Earlier we tried doing it at the MCA building near to our alma mater so that it would be easier for us to carry it to school after finishing it. Suddenly came two old farts, said we don't have any permissions to do it there! My friend has referred to our senior (ex-student) that we could do it in the building...
The old man said we can't be here doing our school stuff. The old lady went on barking and said, "Who is your senior, hah? All of you don't have any permission to come here at all and your so-called senior is a really well known 'Tai Koh' in this Kepong area! Go to his house to do this! What for you come here?!"
And then the rain came down pouring, flooding the MCA house reaallly fast! We've got no where to continue doing our stuff and pleaded whether we can put our materials (consists of a handful of long bamboo sticks only) in building, leaving at the corner... The old hag straight away said that there are aunties dancing in this room and we can't put anything there. OMG, bitch! It's raining cats and dogs outside and we only need to put it there temporarily! It's not like this building is your home or whatsoever. I'm sure the aunts wouldn't stick themselves to the wall and drag theimselves on the floor dancing! It doesn't fill up the whole damn building! It's only a tiny portion of the huge room!
So, in the end, I offered my friend to put all the stuff at my house for the time being and I went rushing for tuition. When I came back, they've already built the boat-like skeletons! It totally took the spaces at the porch... And they left it there for three days... It's really troublesome because it blocked one of the car from parking in and the clothesline was trapped in between! My family have to be careful to walk around so as to not to break the fragile bamboo.

What really pissed me off was after my friend said that they will take it to school to be installed, but she disintegrated it and rebuilt using new bamboos. **** (If your going to do this, why don't you tell me earlier instead?!) I got scolded by my parents for being nice but for no purpose at all! Okay, I forgave her on that (I didn't mentioned about it to her at all) and stayed back really late in school... Until 7pm!! Longest stay ever in my life. And you know what, we spent two hours going to and fro taking materials needed while most of the time we spent on it idling because we, who came to help her don't know what to do at all! We've got no idea on what she's thinking and she just went on being busy and smiling, stayed optimistic the whole day. From 10++ people left only 5 people, all girls to help. Even the 2 guys (classmates) left us. We have to tie thick rough strings about the skeleton to make it look round, but the skeleton itself couldn't support the tension of the string! We girls don't have the strength to do everything by ourselves! I got so mad and just left for home, sweaty, tired and hungry. I blamed it on all the really bad planning she has made. I've asked her, can she make it by doing so much in less than 2 weeks time? She's been positive all the time and was confident she can do it. She gained my support because I thought since this is the last year we will be in school, might as well we do our very best! But look, the main thing wasn't done at all and sports day is TOMORROW already. I'm surprised she could keep her cool.
After taking my dinner and having my injection, I went to help her in my another friend's house. My other friends told me she cried. Oh god. Am I to blame? She is the genuine happy-go-lucky girl and a really nice, friendly person. That's why I'm stunned by the news of her crying. I am really nasty when I'm tired and hungry but I didn't show it in front to her... Maybe the other girls helping as well told her about me. ==
More reinforcements arrived in the scene (Even parents came to help. So touched.) and they've being helping until morning, on the sports day itself. Of course the old folks couldn't take it and went home. Oh ya, the pair of skeleton with ropes tied on it was to make the tent look round by installing it on the left and right side, but it turned out to be hexagonal in shape... Sharp edges instead. And the tree couldn't make it and it turned out to look like vegetable, where you have a long stem and a few leaves on it? Nevermind. The preparation was almost complete and we have to go up and down from the house to school few times to carry the big stuffs on foot. We're doing it last minute, rushing to set up all the prepared materials and finally made it through. What a relief!

[Our tent! Though it didn't resemble just like what I've said, but it does looked good! *compared to other tents* XD]

[Gabriel and our lil cute mascot.^^]
At last, the result of the tent decoration event came in. We came second. Hmm... Not bad. But with all the hardwork, we should have gotten first! After sports day, we have to take it down immediately (after setting it up for so long!!!) or get risked of marks being cut. And oh, by the way, RM80 was our reward. Not enough to rejuvenate ourselves after sacrificing our sleep on it. Curse you all, teachers.

Lost my pieces (Melancholic guitar version) by Tommy Heavenly6

[Tommy Heavenly6 @ Tommy February6: Japanese version of Avril Lavigne! XD]
I Lost my pieces
Falling into Star dust
ame mitai ni
chirabatteku

Why are they leaving me?
subete ga uragiru no
I thought that's forever...
nanimokamo kiete sou subete

I had a dream so... in my dream
Under the star light, baby...
I'll say goodbye to you... ok?
everything is just a dream
so... When I wake up
I loose you from my head
...oh yeah

I don't remember you
when I see you in down town

Where are my pieces?
doko e ittemo
iki ga tsumaru
kyuukutsu da wa
taerarenai

I had a dream so... in my dream
Under the star light, baby...
I'll say goodbye to you... ok?
everything is just a dream
so... When I wake up
I loose you from my head
...oh yeah

namida ga afureochite
urusai BERU ga narihibiku
kamisama oite ikanaide!

I don't remember you
When I see you in heaven

I had a dream, so... in my dream
Under the star light, baby...
kowarete shimau wa
anata koso ga subete datta
demo mou (me) wo akeru wa

I had a dream so... in my dream
Under the star light, baby...
I'll say goodbye to you... ok?
everything is just a dream
so... When I wake up
I loose you from my head
...oh yeah

I don't remember you
When I see you in heaven.

*This song suits my mood so much right now.*